Monday, August 15, 2011

songs and memories

i cant imagine im the only one who does this, but ive never met anyone who does it as... deeply? or emotionally as i do. i put together a song and a place or person in my head, and whenever i hear that song, i close my eyes and think about what its attached to. i have about 600 of these, so im gonna put down as many as i can think of.
(if you dont know the song, please go look it up, because its most likely amazing)
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[bon iver - RE: Stacks]

sitting on the adirondack chair on the hill next to bayside at roger williams university overlooking mt hope bay and the mt hope bridge, in the dark smoking half a pack of cigarettes overlooking the bay lit up by the bridge and the house lights across the bay in tiverton/ fall river.



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[angels and airwaves - the adventure]

the first night i ever spent with a guy, who happened to be my first bf back in 2006, i was laying in bed across the hall from him because we couldnt share a room for obvious reasons haha, but when i was waking up, i turned on my ipod speakers and played this song while we made eye contact after our first night together. im almost positive looking back that he didnt/ doesnt/ wont ever feel the way i felt about him, but im very much over it. it was still a special moment.

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[the postal service - we will become silhouettes]

i listened to the entire album, mostly this song though, when i was in aruba in 2006 with my family. i image attached to this song specifically was my dad driving a jeep full of tourists, including my family, down this deserty/ rocky hillside to get to this place called the natural pool which was this rock formation at the edge of the ocean/ rocks that made a pretty deep pool, with the waves crashing over one wall every couple minutes. it was beautiful.

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[imogen heap - the moment i said it]

a month after my dad died, i got into a relationship for some effed up reason, i was really emotionally needy at that point and jumped into a relationship with this guy kevin for about a month during christmas break back in philly. so long story short, i told him i was worried about us being together after i went back to rhode island, and he took this the wrong way and thought i was implying that i didnt trust him... so he broke up with me overnight on facebook and didnt talk to me afterwards until i ran into him at a halloween party this past year, so on the way home from our last date where we had the fight and he just slammed the door and ran inside, i was listening to this song basically crying because i couldnt handle another loss in my life.

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[john mayer - heartbreak warfare]

same ex same story, just after it set in i was sitting in my garage smoking listening to this song on repeat bawling my eyes out for a good hour

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[i dunno - the summons]

i played this song on piano and sang it at my dads funeral, so whenever i hear it in church i start crying and have to leave. jeez i sound like a whiny little bitch hahah.

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these 5 songs get lumped together because theyre the same genre and i played them all on repeat together during these instances

[hird - water under my bridges]
[plej - and so lay the land]
[plej - borderline]
[plej - safe place]
[plej - seasons]

either walking down the road (old ferry road in bristol, ri) or at the bottom of the road where the street turned into this beautiful round terrace with a lighthouse a few hundred feet to the right, a rocky beach infront and a huge suspension bridge hanging over your head, i usually went down at night and sat on the rock wall and listened to these songs, its my 'happy place' thought, whenever im so upset i cant see straight, i go somewhere to be by myself and think of being in that one spot looking up at the bridge lit up.


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[goldfrapp - rocket (techno club remix)]
[beyonce - videophone (techno club remix)]

these two songs were my favorite club songs to dance to at this club in providence, ri called mirabar. i have so many good memories there, being so new to the club scene, exploring what rhode island had to offer as far as gay activities and social events and parties and the boys, all of that. meeting new people, going to different peoples houses, drinking new drinks, everything was perfect.

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[mgmt - kids]

i sang this twice on karaoke night at mirabar and got pretty good feedback and applause, which actually helped with me being more confident with singing


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[the american analog set - punk as]

sitting on the ripta, rhode island public transportation authority/ the bus, this is the song i listened to watching the quaint new england houses fly by on my way up to providence to hang out with my providence gays. also captured this beauty on the bus while listening to this song haha. pocahontas? i think so.


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[death cab for cutie - grapevine fires]
[matt pond pa - from debris]

these two songs were very symbolic and got me through my house burning down. especially the matt pond one. its amazing.

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[bright eyes - time code]    seriously listen to this song in the dark alone. its fucking mind blowing.

i listened to this song on repeat when i was skiing, kind of made it zone out and reflect on alot of stuff. amazing song.

to be continued...

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